Taylor’s blog

our world is SATURATED with grace. it's overwhelming. and awesome.

"God still loves you no matter what you do, because at the end of the day if you are loving Him and putting Him first, thats all He cares about. He'll filter out in to the other areas of your life when He is the center. You can always be loved by God even if you feel like a complete failure."

Frances: What are four walls, anyway? They are what they contain. The house protects the dreamer. Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise.

-Under the Tuscan Sun.

Trailed by a mess
Of masking tape construction paper
And the best of intentions
He tried to patch up every hole as he went
Back and forth and back again
And his friends half full of half concerns
Embarrassed looks and tired words
They burrowed deeper into the ignorant
Little lives they preferred
And he envied their distance
Their lack of concern
He thought,
Once I shed the whole of me
Once I shed the whole of me
Then I'll be smiling

He cursed himself
And his instinct to nurse
Every idea to health
And all of the falls that he'd spent
Trying to coax his name from the mouths
Of success
He thought
Once I shed the whole of me
Once I shed the whole of me
Then I'll be smiling.

They litter me with small awareness'
Then they ask if I'm good enough
They litter me with small awareness'
Just to wake me up
Why do the fools wake me up?
-Matt Nathanson

Litter me with small awarenesses, just to wake me up.

...let me be to you a sacrifice.

I feel like today must go in the record book for awesome days. I woke up at 12:30. enough said. We had apartment clean up day, I got all my laundry done, balanced my check book, and danced in the process. I also ordered a new book on Amazon... Hope in the Dark.. check it out. Maybe I should add that Bianca became a Christian this week, and her mom has promised she can come to church with my every Sunday now. So after church we went to Longhorn and I ate with Scoop and B. Ok.. back up. earlier this week I met 2 homeless guys. It was weird for me. I can see God is changing my heart in that I had the boldness to walk up to two complete and potentially dangerous strangers and just start a conversation. Thats Jesus coming out of me. Its huge to see Him working in others lives, but absolutely breath-taking when you walk away from an encounter and think, wow, that was completely Jesus and it was awesome. Point in case-- I was inspired to ask my manager about what they do with all the food at the end of the day, she called corporate and got permission to give it to me to go give to my new homeless friends at night. Church was awesome. Dustin did an awesome job wrapping up the series on perceptions. I hope he feels better--he was sick. Bianca took communion. Three weeks ago she didnt at the service. I got chills when I saw her stand up and walk down front. She made that decision on her own because Jesus is real in her heart and we will be in heaven together one day. She lives with hope and has a passion that is humbling. I forget how remarkable Jesus is most of the time, I forget what He has done for my life. After dinner, I went to Chase's apt. We worked on our rap. I had to leave to go help break down after the last service. To my suprise I saw Albert (one of the homeless guys I met earlier in the week wheeling himself down the road. Everything inside of me was saying go talk to him, and when the light turned green, I hesitated and then went. Once again, Jesus. It was 10:40 at night, in a dangerous part of town. So I pulled my car over and gave him my dessert from Longhorn. How did God know he loves chocolate so much? Albert looks at me and says " You know, I was thinking about going the other way home tonight, but something inside of me was telling me to take this route. I believe that the good Lord tells us these things to prove to us he is looking out for us if we just listen. I know there are good people out here looking out for me like he does." Here I was thinking I was helping him, and he was calming my restless heart, I was seeing Jesus in Him.

I love Albert, I can't wait to see how our friendship blossoms.